The letter is handwritten, heartbreaking, and quintessential Fiona Apple.

The singer-songwriter has decided to cancel upcoming South America tour dates to be her pitbull Janet, who is dying. To announce the news, she hand wrote a four-pager letter that is scanned and transcribed on her Facebook page. The whole thing is brutal and will probably spoil your day, so here are the pertinent bits (the full scan is below).

“I have a dog Janet, and she’s been ill for almost two years now, as a tumor has been idling in her chest, growing ever so slowly. She’s almost 14 years old now.I got her when she was 4 months old. I was 21 then ,an adult officially – and she was my child…

“I can’t come to South America. Not now. When I got back from the last leg of the US tour, there was a big, big difference. She doesn’t even want to go for walks anymore…

“So I am staying home, and I am listening to her snore and wheeze, and reveling in the swampiest, most awful breath that ever emanated from an angel…